Up until today, I had been rigorously working on my portfolio and applications for graduate school. RIGOROUSLY for about a couple months. I had never been this busy, because I really believe I took multi-tasking to a new dimension. From conceptualization of idea, sketches, material selection, the actual artwork, photos (always getting into a situation while paying $$$), insert photo into ID-- all this in about 3-4 different versions. My portfolio contains about 20 pieces of artwork, might I add.
Though during this time, I have emaciated down to 45.6 kgs (and not in a toned way, but just flat out desiccated from stress and overwork) and have disciplined myself to sleep no more than 4-5 hours of sleep each night, I'm certainly thankful of this experience. The real commitment to hakwon began in October but it was probably at the end of November that I started to get antsy and began dashing with full speed all the way to yesterday. I pulled two all-nighters in the past three days. I hope for good results. I get worried when I, being the harshest critic of myself, look at my own portfolio and essay. I get afraid i won't get accepted anywhere! But by looking at how God has worked myself in the past five years, I know for certain he has favor and mercy upon me. He really does! So, I try to remember that and comfort myself.
My husband, whom I must thank with all my heart, is truly the best person in the world! He comes home early so I can go do all of my stuff and takes care of Liam the enttire day x 60 days. He has done all the dishes, laundry, and takes care of everything else so I can focus solely on my work. Though I felt very guilty, my husband encouraged me to give it my all. He is so selfless when it comes to Liam and me. Also the most supportive and encouraging. Truly, down to the last pigment of my skin, to the last hair follicle of my body, he is my soul mate.
Liam has grown so fast. He melts my heart and mama is very sorry that I couldn't take care of you as much as I wanted to. You give me so much strength. I feel like I could take on anything for Liam :) Anyway, he has started purees of bananas, ga-am, strawberries, apples, carrots, but hasn't started rice pouridge yet. We will soon. I remember the very first time I stuck a spoon full of banana puree into his mouth. He smiled like goober. He was so confused as to what to do with his mouth and the spoon. He at one point started sucking on the spoon hahaha. SO CUTE. I also always wonder if other babies crack up as well? What I mean is Liam cracks up real HARD. Everytime hubs does something funny, he cracks up like an adult would. Not a chuckle but to the point he screeches and his face turns red. It is so cutest and funniest thing. My little poopoopie.
We're going to Cali in a couple of days. for two months without hubs. I really think the warm weather and the suburban environment would suit him better than here... at least for the winter. The only problem would be that we'll miss hubs so much.
Anyhow, 2014 will mark a big year for us: my graduate school, Liam's 1st birthday, oppa's job in America, and our big immigration. HAHA
